Fall has come!

I can't believe my favorite time of year has come once again...Fall! I love the weather changes, nature changes, sights and smells of Fall. I have recently started substitute teaching in the Rutherford county schools. I have enjoyed it so far. Children never cease to amaze me and touch my heart! So many different ideas, imaginations, thoughts and personalities they each have. I have to work on my firmness some because I am a bit soft around children and school is obviously a structured, controlled environment that needs to be maintained in order for learning to happen. I have always wondered about getting an Early Childhood Degree to teach Kindergarten or 1st grade, so this experience is giving me a chance to see a small fraction of what that career would be like. Although, in my heart I know what I really want to do as a career and that is Social Work. I would give anything to make that dream a reality but right now it is not a time I can afford college and it stresses my mom out if I even mention the subject because she wants me to be able to go, but has no way to help me right now and doesn't want me to get into debt. I am trusting in God's time and plan in all areas of my life and believe if I follow him, love him, serve him, and do my best he will make a way for my college if it is in his will. I am completely single at this time and have been since Feb this year. After a 5 year relationship with my now ex boyfriend, things ended completely between us when he found his dream woman. Things have been very hard and trying throughout our relationship and we even split a few times but because of loving him so much, I stuck around and supported him when I should have left long ago. My heart knows the feeling of being broken into pieces but my relationship with God has grown since the break up and I know it's because I'm finally listening to God instead of trying to convince him what is best like I had been doing. I have given my future relationships to God completely and am gonna wait for the person he sends to me now. It's amazing to me that right here and now is no where near where I thought I'd be and had planned to be at this point in my life but I have to believe the things I've been through have been for a reason unknown to me but well known to my savior. I'm trusting him and my heart is much better off now!